a year in review

I sit here and watch aiden playing and I just can't believe what a year has brought. He has grown so much and it is amazing all that he is doing.

He is talking so much (I'm gonna try to not repeat what I put before - but I can't promise) some of his words and phrases are: here, please, help me, woah, eww, more, apple, boots, ear, eyes, blocks, ball, Elmo, sit, play, book, bath, eee-ya (I think he is saying hi-ya), thank you, cheese, ow (which he then proceeds to get a kiss for his boo-boo), night-night, yay, mine, no, waffles

He likes to sing along with jingle bells - he'll even say some of the words with you - like bells and way - and when we pause for the 'hey' part he will say it - same for the laughing all the way - he'll go 'hahaha' and when you ask him what Santa says he'll say 'ho ho ho'.

He still is a very picky eater - bread, pizza (although i can get him to eat green peppers on a pizza!), cheese, banana, chicken nuggets, grilled cheese, sometimes he'll eat apples, eggs, pancakes, waffles.

Sometimes he is able to tell me when he has to potty - or just after he went. He actually peed in his potty today while waiting to take a bath. So I think we'll be potty training soon!

One thing that he has learned this year that I'm not too happy about is hitting and fighting. I know he hasn't learned that at home and I totally think that is from day care.

The hardest part of this year was having Adam gone for half of it. I get to talk to him every day and Aiden usually gets to talk to him on the weekends. I'm very excited for him to come home in 16 days!!

I hope everyone has a fabulous 2012!

the hardest thing

so i posted a status update tonight on FB "I think the hardest part of not having Adam here is spending every night at home alone" there is so much more in that statement than the obvious.


when news went out that adam was going overseas MANY people responded with something along the lines of - we'll (i'll) be here for you, if you need anything let me (us) know, etc.


i have asked various friends for help and they have always been willing - but it would be nice if - for just once - someone would call or (even better) stop by for a surprise visit - to check on me and hang out - have dinner, watch tv or a movie. 


i have had a total of 1 friend who would come over - just to hang out.


i LOVE aiden with all of my heart - but even with him here - i honestly feel like i'm more alone - because besides work and the gym - i have NO adult interaction, and it's honestly really starting to wear on me..... who am i kidding, it's already taken a toll.


i miss my mom and dad so much - i wish they were still here.


i think the time of the year isn't helping much - this was my mom's favorite holiday.


i can't even stop crying while writing this post.